You have something called "oneitis" where you've tricked yourself into believing there's only one person out there and you've found them. Lots of people go through this and eventually get over it or sit at a Compaq Tech. Support desk for the rest of their lives. You're living inside your head and need to step out into the real world or you'll destroy your life. Talk to a school counselor, increase your social activity, and find something to get your mind off Paris Hilton. I'm fucking serious.